Nevermind the stupid title. I'm not really in the mood for being serious. i'm sitting here, in a VERY nice outfit and I'm actually feeling beautiful. I personally have absolutely no Phucking idea what the heck I'm gonna do later tonight. Most of all I just want to come with my father and watch him and Albin tonight. Unfortunally I can't... So I'm just gonna go home, make a big fuss and then play loud music and feel all miserable.
There sure are a lot of interesting things I could write...
For one... i rehersed my lines with Tomas. it took about 10 minutes then we started talking about religion. *grins* I love talking about religion. Especially people who have been raised hard core christians. *chuckles* They have this narrow minded way of looking at the world. And things that are not hippieish or weird to me at all, they think is really freaked out.
geeesh... I live a life free of fear and no strings attatched. And it's so liberating. unfortunately some people fale to see the beauty of it and thinks I'm nuts.
Me and my friend is writing a song. it's moving towards a Nightwish style metal operetta á tavern song. it's really quite beautiful so far, even though we only have the main chords. I just adore it!!!!!!
Oh... and my other friend, named Emmy, and I are going to write a book for teenagers about health and exercise. AND Albin agreed to be our model for the "gym" shots. *smiles* So guess how happy I am on a scale from one to one hundred!? I am overy extatic! ;)
Oh... what else? My darling friend Holly's not feeling well. I wish i could help her, it's a shame we live three hours away from each other... Things would be so much easier if humans could teleport or orb or whatever! *sighs*
Well... I'm back on a diet. Just thought I'd let y'all know. If I seem ditzy it's probably because i forgot to take a shake or something. i'm such a forgetfull person sometimes. I really need to work on my memory.
Yeah... I've finally moved, and it feels good to have the whole thing over with and done. Other then that I had to goto the E.R because of my severe cramps this saturday,but I'm fine now cause the doctor gave me little pills that makes my tummy feel better. Aparantly this condition is very much so common among girls my age, so I don't have to worry. The pills are pink by the way. Which naturally makes me think og P!nks song "Just like a pill". no reason to explain that, i hope.
Anyways...Isaac Hanson is in a hospital, or was... gee, i've been absent from the net for 1 week and he end up in a hospital because of a blood clog... *ish* Well...he's gonna be fine though, which is really all I care about right now.
Ah... I have a buisy week ahead of me, i have to study for 3 teste, rtoday i'm gonna watch Albin reherse for the big premiere of the Christmas show he's starring in and tomorrow i'm going to study my lines along with Thomas. In my room... I am totally nervous about the whole experience since i've never really talked to thomes outside the drama classes and now he's coming to my house!
My friends just looked into the computor room, they're soo damn loud! Good thing I don't have any classes with them this afternoon. just 4 glorious hours of music! What else can one ask for?
Music... yes, the one thing that Albin and i really have in common besides being compleatly health freaks! We'd make a perfect couple if he'd only dump that girlfriend of his. Who seems to be a compleat bimbo. I tried to email her once, thinking my hatred for her might go away if she was nice to talk to. unfortunatly my niceness(yes... I was actually really nice to her) did not pay off and she kinnda didn't mail me back. That ugly....
Well,enough about that. Apart from Albins rehersal I will also be looking at my fathers rehersal as well... Well... he's the only reason I was invited to come along to Albins rehersal too. Most of the time my father is really good to have! *grins* That he knows the darling Albin is just a big fat plus!
I adore my dad, I'm such a daddys girl. We both love the same things and the only areas we differ in is religion and politics. My father is more conservative then me, but I'm cool with that as long as he is the wonderful man he's always been. One can really tell that I'm his daughter.
Ah... I and Thomes is going to call me at 12 o'clock tonight to set a timeand place for us to meet and stuff so that we can practice the lines. And I don't want tooooo!!!!! I feel like throwing a fit, but i don't really have the time or energy for that. Anything else? Yes.... I'm gonna watch dark Angel tonight... that's about it I guess.... now... get outta here, but not without leaving a comment in the blog... come on. i know you want to!
Yes... things are really starting to feel like we're actually moving. And I must say I am very excited. Not only because we're moving to something bigger, but because moving to me means a new start in life. When you change and you still live in the same place, your old self will start to rub into you. And moving to a few place allows you to really keep the change clean. You can just decorate your new room with your new feelings and the new you, until you are compleately into the groone, so to speak. I absolutely adore the new house. Despite the ugly wallpaper my mum picked out AND the ugly cupboards that are there already, things are really feeling like HOME.
So... I told you I had to pack down my altar and all things on and around it. Well... I made a little temporary altar out of my nightstand for the last few nights here. I putted my flowers on it and a candle, an acorne and a chestnut. It looks nice and as soon as I get some water onto that altar, it's going to be all I need it to be.
Other then that I'm pretty happy, and it's my junkie day (all health freaks have junkie days... except for my friend Angie, but she's just wierd) and we're gonna have a few bittles of beer and eat some unhealthy stuff. Nothing too greasy though, we don't want to gain any weight... ;)
Yes... I am stressed out. Moving is definately mentally exhausting and a totally big source of stress... I hate it, yet I love it.
I did a very promesing tarot reading last night, and apart from 2 cards, I managed to interpretate(sp?) it all without looking in the book.
Tonight I'll probably do a past life meditation or something like it. I had to pack up my altar yesterday so there will be no serious rituals for a week or probably more since my dear mother took my altar table and decided to use it for what it really is, a tv table.
So... this is it so far, except for my headache I am feeling fairly nice, i just want to get the damn move over with already!!!!!
Oh... hi! I was just ranting in my own little dillutional head and decided to share my madness with you all. I hope that is okay... [i]she said as though the poor and innocents souls had a choice.[/i]
Ahh... yes. I had a very interesting day. I went for a window shopping spree to a specific store with some very special staff members [i]with a really special bu... eyes?[/i] And even though I wasn't even going to try anything on, I left after trying about 4 pair of jeans and having shown them to a very special staff member [i]with a very special bu... eyes?[/i]
Other then that? I went for a walk with my father and his girlfriend. We discussed my mothers lack of understanding. I am not compleately alien to teh thought of bashing my mother in front of my father. Actually I am quite fond of it.
I know... I'm evil.
However I would have to make Mike dishapointed and say that i am not Satan. I don't even believe in Satan. I might be a little bitch every now and again, but i'm not some Christian idea of someone to blame the messed up things their god doesn't take care off on.
Ahh... enough for today. I'd be happy to hear from Mike again soon. And I hope he stops posting as gallo soon. It's rather annoying actually.
... immature little thugs. Don't you? It's when people like that flame you, that's when you truly know you've reached a new level of maturity. Well... guess what? That only excercised my abs with some really heavy laughter.
Well... I'm off to cook myself a REALLY yummy dinner.
If there's one place I can shy away from this newfound maturity of mine it'd have to be this damn blog. I seriously don't feel that much more mature, well... I didn't until I re-read the posts I have made so far today in various forums and message coards.
Aparantly some wierd thing happened to me over night and all of a sudden I'm this mature creature who can write and formulate my posts perfectly, almost. I swear it's Nay's fault! She never should have started to compare me with Prue Halliwell from Charmed! I bet it's got something to do with it. *smiles* Nay's such a sweet girl...
Well... ya know what? I'm almost learning to enjoy this. It's not like it physically hurts to be a bit more mature then the next person. Or the third for that matter... at leats this applies to my home enviroment right now. This place is a damned travesy! I really like that word by the way; travesty. I like the way it sounds.
From one thing to another. I really do hope Hanson releases their new album sometime soon! I'm going crazy here... I'm really really really nervous for them. I just want the record out there... NOW! *grins and laughes*
oohhh... more? Yes yesh... I have more. I haven't really slept for... like... 6 days. At least not more then, like... 30 minutes at the times. I'm dying here... I'm tired beyond years.
Yeah... I confess. Scenes that include love is extremely hard to do in theater. You have no idea what you're doing. You feel so embaressed and so extremely aware of yourself. And in that moment you're inside that part you're playing. You ARE in love. And it can actually wear into your personal life.
Anyways... enough of my damn rambelings about my acting. Poor Thomas is probably worse off then I am since he's got such a hard time doing those kind of scenes and yet, when he concentrates... he does it brilliantly.
I have been blessed, yes... it truly feels that way. Hecate has taken me under her owly wings and is teaching me about life. I do think she's better for me then Aphrodite and Artemins. After all... I'm not really that loving or carefree anymore. I'm more like Hecate in many ways. And I think she's got a lot to show me.
[b]Thill Of The Day[/b]
I am just... excited... I do really think it's a full moon tonight or tomorrow night. It'd be my first full moon ritual... shows you how good I amwith the moon cycles!
[b]Thoughts Of Today[/b] Well... what do you know. I was right. Things did change, a whole lot! I have changed, people around me has changed... or maybe it's just me. Maybe everybody else are just the way they were and it's just me. I just changed the way I look at them.
All of a sudden people are telling me I look like Angelina Jolie and that I should become a model. I must have changed a lot, a few years ago people were telling me I was ugly and should die. And now this!
I must say I am surprised. I have no idea what has happened, but things just seem more... relevant.
Well... other than that... I did a re-vamp of my dear blog. It's now all... Angelina. And why not? I do relate to her a lot... so...
[b]Feeling Of The Day[/b] Happyness... and confusion. Mostly Happiness though
[b]Craving Of Today[/b] Water! I need water damnit!
[b]Song Of Today[/b] Hanson's "Penny and Me" ohh... and Bon Jovi's song "Bounce"
[b]Show of Today[/b] Dark Angel... no doubt about it!
[i]Be cool and stay healthy... and now... get the heck outta here![/i]
Nevermind the stupid title.